Last week I received several requests from different people asking me to do random things. I was pondering on this and mentioned it to several of the people that were in close proximity to where I was sitting. My concern was not that I am asked to help people in various ways because I love to help people, but the general consensus is that because I am a stay-at-home mom, I have nothing to do to keep me busy. Most people view my job as a mom as one that is based on me spending hours at a time doing absolutely nothing. One thing that I’m sure about is that being a mom is a full-time job, and I find myself always having one million things going on all at the same time.
While I was growing up, my life-long dream was to be a lawyer. After spending a few weeks in Europe and a semester at the United Nations in NYC during my college years, I had wanted to work for the United Nations in Paris. To be honest, the dream of being a lawyer is still alive and well. However, one thing that keeps me at bay is the fact that I know so many people that keep conventional jobs to pay the bills, but they would rather just follow their dreams. Some of those dreams include freelance work in different capacities. I, on the other hand, teeter between following my dreams and following my dreams. Sounds crazy doesn’t it? My dream is to be a (corporate) attorney and travel the world while doing so or to either market or buy fashion. But on the other hand, my dream is to just be a wife and mom. I also realize that it wouldn’t make sense to leave what many people want, to go do something that many people are trying to leave.
A few days ago, I was asked to explain exactly what I do all day long. Funny thing is, I even stumped myself. I had to think about it. I mean, do I really need to justify what I do on a daily basis? Isn’t being present in my home and being there for my family enough? I think many moms find themselves feeling a lot of guilt because they might feel as though they don’t do enough. For the most part, people assume that their job is more important than my ‘job.’ I beg to differ. My job is 24 hours a day. It never ends. I am my son’s teacher, tutor, chauffeur, lunch lady, quiz coach, launderer, mom, and many other things. It is never-ending, and I don’t regret one moment of it.
After a while though, I started to list the activities that fill my day. What takes up most of my day is my day. That’s it. The rest of the details of my day are really not that important to anyone but my family and me. I can elaborate more on what I do all day long, but I don’t feel like justifying my schedule. I post a lot of pictures of outfits and other things that I enjoy, and I will most likely continue to do so. I hope you’ll stick around as I continue to take snapshots my life and and style. And that full-time, out-of-the-home job? Maybe some day.